30/04/04(415am)- im wired right now. and i was in a pissy mood last night. 1. i gotta redo some french work tomorrow am (today). 2. im going to try my kite again tomorrow maybe? 3. i started writing another 20 page life-assessment letter again tonight. if depot and st. laurent/prince arthur werent so happening tonight, i might have been less distracted and more writing that letter. 5. i saw those girls from the march opus for the second time in 4 days tonight. yeah. the redhead was cute. 6. im planning on publishing my opus after doing a final edit. anyone know of lit magazines that would publish something that long? [discuss]

29/04/04(930pm)- they fucking blew it. they fucking outplayed tampa 3/4 games and lost 4/4 of them. they fucking choked and blew it. fucking fucking fucking blew it. they deserve zero stars. especially jose theodore, who is still with his head up his fucking ass on that 16$ million contract. fucking fucking fucking blew it. [discuss]

(900pm)- ive realised a couple of things today:
1. its hard to fly a kite. they get up and then nose dive down. i felt like charlie brown.

2. the habs have been creating turnovers left and right. that is why they are losing this series to tampa bay.

3. in three years of living in this apartment, i have yet to have sex in my bed. that makes me really sad.

4. i was thinking about friends and the friends ive made here and how different they are from those at home and how different it is and the process of making friends. i realised that back in ct, i made friends with people who had the same things in common with me. maybe they liked star trek. or hootie and the blowfish. or any number of interests of mine that i had. but in four years, most of the friends ive made- they really have nothing in common with me. seth and david are jewish, but thats about it. ive realised that making friends has nothing to do with what you have in common, but whether you like a persons personality/company. this includes significant others. for instance, none of my friends really have commonalities with me. none of my friends play instruments, so i dont jam with any of them. many of my friends dont like the habs. or like other sports better, or other teams. coldplay may be the only band that most people like, but of my friends, most of them dont know or like the varied music i listen to. life philosophies arent always the same... and so i think, how was it when i first came here that i made friends? i remember sitting at dinner in bmh first year, feeling like it was summer camp or something. you know, just a bunch of people i would be living with and experiencing this with for 4 years. and i would go from group to group and table to table of people trying to see who i had what in common with.

i have an impeccable database in my head of names and faces. 80% of the time, i can remember a face and/or its accompanying face. so after 4 years, its interesting that some people i pass every day walking to class, and i know their face and i know their name, but they might even know that i ate dinner with them for a month first year. or that i was in their frosh group. or any of the above. and once in a while we're re"introduced" at some random party or something. and maybe i liked them at the time. or maybe i didnt like them and just hung around cause i thought i was supposed to.

senior year of high school is returning for me. my life has gone full circle. the waiting, the anxiety, the girls, the future, the friends, the leaving, the moving on.... 4 years ago at this exact point in the year, i wrote myself a 20 page letter detailing exactly what was going on in my life. short of wanting to deck andrew for getting my girlfriend to cheat on me with him (some memories just never get erased...), i dont think my life has reflected differently now. yes, there have been many memories, many experiences, everything from montreal. but its like my own wuthering heights. its like the second part of my life- its very different, but exactly the same. history has a way of repeating itself. theres someone else id rather deck now. theres other people im interested in. theres other doubts about leaving friends behind. theres other doubts about making friends in the future. theres other doubts about meeting other people in the future. and nagging thoughts about life and love.

ending chapters in the book of life always makes me introspective. 4 years ago, i started work on my album, canned introspection. it was a time where i was nostalgic, wistful, and wondering about the future. im at that point in my life again. the hostile juncture. the point where i might warrant writing another 20 page letter, trying to figure my life out. and, like 4 years ago, show it to the people whom im most affected by and need to see my thoughts.

movement 9 of the opus of prince arthur and st. laurent is now being dubbed the coda movement. its a movement that wasnt originally supposed to have been written. it is my summation of the year, it is my summation of my feelings on women, it is my summation of the things ive done and seen. it is my summation of montreal. forever have i changed, forever am i the same... [discuss]

(1225pm)- im tired of the bullshit about how iraqis should be grateful for the us "liberating iraq." jon stewart was right on the daily show last night. what if instead of defeating the british and writing our constitution and writing another constitution and creating an american flag, etc.... what if the french did that for us. what if it was the french who single-handedly ousted king george, wrote us a constitution, gave the us a flag and then said "go at it." how would have that have turned out? probably not good. 80% of iraqis didnt like saddam hussein. fair enough. however, ~75% of iraqis dont like george bush. so the question is, is it a fair assessment to say that its a good thing we're in iraq still. no one should have to die in war, particularly in the methods of carbombings and insurgent fire, suh as that going in in al-fallujah right now. however, i cant help but wonder if the iraqi people are really justified in doing what they are doing if they're ever going to liberate themselves. in reality, there never is a power vacuum.

the next question on the chopping block is that of the bush/cheney 911 commission joint testimony. it makes sense and shouldnt surprise the american public in the least. we always knew the two were up to something. we knew they knew something, we knew they didnt act on it. we knew it was the two of them in it together. and then with the political wrangling about how many people/staff members get to be in the room when the two clowns arent under oath...? quite frankly the american public isnt convinced anymore, thus, i dont see the logical progression of 911 commission events as being shocking. to quote a post-911 americanism, "united they stand, together they fall." bush may be the puppet, but the dummy and the hand inside it form one entity.

there was one more thing i had to say about iraq but i cant remember what it was. [discuss]

27/04/04(630pm)- with the exception of my so-ive-heard-as-easy may final, i am done with undergraduate exams. i can finally sleep in tomorrow. french lit was alright but writing in french sucked. europol was too easy it was foolish. especially the mandatory bullshit, write about the similarities/differences of 1 of the following 3 pairs of countries question. waiting to hear from chart. waiting to meet sera. 25 min til game 3. mirv is moving today. i had a dream that i smoked a doobie with the dalai lama. im gonna go to the washroom now. dad will be proud to read that. everyone else wont understand. the words "chillax" and "cellify" do not exist in the english language. anyone who uses them should be shipped to don cherry's home and forced to watch a leafs game with him. go habs. [discuss]

24/04/04(540pm)- my picks for this round: tampa bay vs. montreal (6), philadelphia vs. toronto (7), san jose vs. colorado (4), detroit vs. calgary (6). i am routing for montreal, philly, san jose, and calgary. maggie the macaque picks tampa bay, toronto, calgary, san jose. [discuss]

22/04/04(1150am)- i think i got about a 4 hour nap in the last 48 hours. finally finished my french language history take-home final. it was either so hard i didnt get it, or it was so easy that i was stressing. or, put in other words, i showed it to marc-alex and guillaume, and both of them told me it wasnt even french. that was until the old lady chantal realized it was acadian french and everything got shifted. made it easier to research from there. but again, how many ways can you say that acadian french was old school, was mixed with english, and sometimes doesnt make sense? anyways, now im in the arts computer lab and gonna go call chart to follow up my application and then do the nytimex xword. i really should be sleeping but i really should also be on a normal sleep schedule. if i keep myself awake i could do so. right now chart magazine is my lead. its where id really like to work based on the job posting. thats the point at which i would consider applying for permanent residency.

not much else been going on except working on job stuffs. we went to the habs-bruins game last tuesday. was really cool. finally got the molson ex shirt i won in the raffle. spent 10 hours one night working on my resume, but i think its now damn good.

winding up the year. winding up the university experience... well not exactly, im still here in may. but since everyone else will pretty much be done, its pretty much over now. plus my may course is a communications course. anyways, yeah im nodding off at the arts lounge keyboard again :-/ anyways...wonder if theres videocameras watching me falling asleep in my chair. have cowboysfringants music all up in my head.

so i was walking down sherbrooke by cours mont royal and there was an alcan meeting and a bunch of people protesting it. i came to the quite obvious realisation that most protesters are under the age of 25-26. when do you ever see an old person protest. its like by 26, you realise that you cant earn a living, that you cant save a world of 6 billion, and you cant stop economics. i mean im against free trade and outsourcing and its reprecussions all that as anyone, but come on, not myself nor me and 20 or me and 40 or me and 4000 people is either going to stop alcan from building the indian plant, nor is it going to stop free trade. nor any of that. im not saying social action and trying to save the world is wrong. but in an age of protests, today the protests do nothing. unless they actually do legalise marijuana. in which case the million marijuana march on may 1 would actually have had some effect. the world is against humanity, plain and simple. [discuss]

17/04/04(1040pm)- boston should leave hockey to a city that IS hockey. do you believe in miracles? the horns and shouting in the city of montreal should speak it all. GO HABS GO! TRICOLOURE JUSQU'AU BOUT! [discuss]

14/04/04(530pm)- whats funny is that since i blocked the toronto sympatico ip addresses, i cant access my site from wireless here at depot. :-p anyways i figure to take this opportunity to write an update since my first final isnt until a take home which is due on the 22nd. first off, last nights game was great, despite its shitty outcome. we lost 4-3 in double OT due to a shitty ref job followed by a shitty judgment by kovalev to not continue playing even though he was hurt. and just when he redeemed himself in game 3.... anyways, i won a free t-shirt (for once), and we (and the habs flag, which came out of my window for the game) made it on the jumbotron 5 TIMES!!!!!!!! it was me, dany, roommate jen's boyfriend george, and cafe depot guillaume. so that was cool. however what would have been cooler was if we won the game 3-2 in regulation like we should have. so this past week has been a lot of playoffs game watching. and working on cover letter/resumes for all 100something places im going to be applying to; i hope to have all my apps out by the end of the week. then, was my jazz listening at upstairs with mirv and a jazz test yesterday. some weird sleep schedules that include nights where i couldnt fall asleep til 6am and then ones where i stayed up all night. what im digging most of all is that offering at chart attack, which would be amazing/stupendous.

lemme see. for clarification, who i'm routing for and who im picking for the playoffs are two different things. so ill share my routings: tampa bay, montreal, philly, ottawa, nashville, san jose, vancouver, and dallas. and yes, if theres any dark horse to round one, it will be nashville who is starting to smoke detroit.

oh and i got the jacques parizeau biography. looks to be really good and its been getting a lot of press coverage for some of the things it says. surprisingly for the fact that i havent updated in a while, i dont really have anything relevant to say. passover went well and another successful year of keeping it without family. im getting good at doing the passover thing in my apartment. shockingly though, i dont have much to say. its not been the most exciting since those two weeks of hell. so i guess ill put down more when i have it to say... [discuss]

07/04/04(705pm)- here we gooooo.....!!!!!!!!! :-D [discuss]

06/04/04(1005am)- my first round playoff picks in bold, games in parentheses: tampa bay vs. ny islanders (5), montreal vs. boston (6), philly vs. new jersey (7), ottawa vs. toronto (6), detroit vs. nashville (4), san jose vs. st. louis (7), vancouver vs. calgary (6), colorado vs. dallas (7). maggie the macaque from tsn is at it again. i cant remember her predictions from last year, but she was like 7-1 in the first round and had the mighty ducks going to the finals. go monkey! her predictions are: NYI , BOS, PHI, TOR, NAS, STL, VAN, DAL. i dont think the monkey's gonna fare as well this year.... [discuss]

(1250am)- its been so long since ive done a proper update that i dont even know that ill get to doing it namely cause theres so much to say from over the last three weeks. tonight david and i did seder. yesterday i saw spears. habs play bruins in playoffs. game four is the 13th. w00t. then, im not sure what else been going on since last thurs. ooh the trib party on friday. a fun saturday night. yeah. eventually ill get around to updating... [discuss]