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31/07/03(740pm)- not much going on today. long day at the bank. i hate working til 6. still working on getting my laptop to speed. got photoshop, got psp, got ws_ftp, etc. that pretty much gets me up there. downloading my website now so i have the files on this computer. yeah, not the happiest day i guess. but thats life. lot of poetry flowing out these days on the page.
30/07/03(1140pm)- well, today was a mediocre day. not much happened at the bank at all except that the merger's got everyone on edge since we're supposed to get a surprise visit from the upcoming ceo of the new bank. anyways. so things at the bank were soso, fairly slow. not much else happening. got my laptop, so ive been reworking it to do what i like. seems to be functioning okay, hopefully better than the hp. slightly faster (by this speed, its tough to tell although its still faster. then theres the whole windows xp deal which im trying to get used to. customizing my desktop and all that. not much else to report today. wish things were going a little better all around. not much time left here in ct, but i guess theres not much more to do... i need a cracked version of ws_ftp 8.0...
29/07/03(1100pm)- later rescinded after todays senate foreign relations cmte. hearing on iraq reconstruction, but god bless america and the republican party. the policy analysis market. its like the stock market for terrorist attacks! buy low, sell high! assassination of iranian leaders, up 2 pts. aircraft carrier sunk, down 3/4. lets hear it for big business, ruler of all.
(945pm)- dvds i wanna get: the wilco documentary. cds i wanna get: damien rice, earlimart, grandaddy, manitoba, yo la tengo, mogwai, and ted leo and the pharmacists. could also use a little more jazz. its weird. like songs that i dont like are coming onto the radio and all of a sudden im now appreciating them more. for a thought provoking debate on mainstream vs. indie music, check out this post on drop. anyways. today was a so so day at work. kinda wondering now what my next step after graduation is. i dunno if law school straight away is going to happen, but we'll see. job market is real tough now. its like im reaching that uncertainty point that i had senior year of high school and not knowing what the next step is. kinda weird to know ill have a bachelors degree next year and that people do things with their lives with bachelors degrees. not to say that i envision that to be the end for me, but its just plain weird. and yeah, this is seeming like its going to be a real weird year for me. im also thinking of adding, if not switching, my minor to french language. not too many things ill have to do to finish that up and i definitely have more passion for french than canadian history i think. *shrug*
so what else is going on? my computer should be coming soon. it just left newark on fedex, meaning either tomorrow or thursday i should be playing around with it. and still need to figure out how to get old stuff onto it. *shrug* still going around these poems and listening to song lyrics closer now. looking forward to the computer. want to talk to jen. not much else happening, very random now.
28/07/03(645pm)- i cleaned up on some of my literary works, incorporating past and present poems that were scattered around my site. in doing that though, it got me reading different parts of the site and remembering different events, different feelings at different times. feels good to go back every once in a while and see what was going on in my life- one of the primary reasons i work this site. when im on my deathbed, ill read this site and remember what it was like being 16, 19, 21... and see how, as i put it in a past update, "the evolution of me" was shaped. it'll definitely be interesting.
as for yesterday, woke up around noon and then went grocery shopping for some chili. made some sweet and spicy chili while angela came over and then we met jon and mark to see tomb raider cradle of life. decent movie- very much reminiscent to me of raiders of the lost ark. anyways. after that we got home and let the chili simmer more and then ate dinner around 7ish. the chili was excellent. i didnt use a recipe, but it came out phenomenal. when you taste it, theres this sweet flavour thats the brown sugar. but after sitting in your mouth for a couple seconds, you start to feel this burning. thats the chili powder and peppers. it was ridiculously amazing. i cant say much more other than ill make it some other time in the future. having my parents gone all weekend was definitely good cause i finally got to cook a meal meal here, not just another tv dinner or moms traditional cooking. sometimes i wish shed branch from some of the traditional things she makes and do an outlandish recipe like stew or chili or something funky with chicken. thats the stuff... anyways. so the parent-free weekend has been winding down as they get back in just a couple hours from now. today at work went okay and i balanced. meanwhile it was elises first sbm day also and she balanced. good for her. everyone at work liked the chili also. okay so save for the chili, not too much happened around here, but damn it was good. and as for this evening, who knows whats goin on. when ive got more to say i suppose ill be back to say it. ciao for now...
27/07/03(1200pm)- had a series of bizarre dreams last night. ranging from stuff doing with me and jen, the girls from work coming to visit me in montreal, and rane playing at OAP this year. i still dont understand any of it, but then, ive never understood much about dreams at all. they never seem to come true. *shrug*
these birds are going absolutely nuts. making a lot of noise. cute but noisy. anyways. friday evening was an okay evening. i went to jon, john, mark, and hugh's apartment/condo/mansion/whatever you want to call it for a bbq. it was good to finally see jon after not really seeing him all summer. plus getting out of the house was good. also learned this card game, death, which was pretty fun and i won 2 out of the 3 games we played. beginners luck? so after that, i was home around midnight and went to sleep around 1. woke up saturday morning for work. work was so so. got home from work and then talked to andrew. he came over shortly thereafter and we chilled around here, listened to some music, started working on burning some cds and then went to hartford to see this movie, swimming pool. not a bad movie but very slow. was in french and english, which was nice but english subtitled french is starting to annoy me because when im trying to listen to the french i get distracted. id give the movie ***1/2. well done but slow. had an ending twist that was tough to comprehend. anyways. then we came back, hung out waiting for elise and shannon and then went to unos for dinner. good dinner, good conversation, good to get out with andrew again. good to just get out. its been a real rough week.
today i might do stuff with either angela or jon. maybe see tomb raider. maybe make chili for dinner tonight. other than that i dont know what. jens away this weekend but i wish i could see her. anyways who knows what the plans are for today. we shall soon see...
25/07/03(100pm)- im in a foul mood right now. ive been up since 645 this am to go to our 730 staff meeting of which not only was i not a part of, but i couldnt even ask the questions i wanted. the merger thing has now gotten somethings ridiculous and ive just been ticked from the outset of the day. combine that with other goings on and i wish i was in montreal for the weekend instead. yesterday was a fairly normal day at work and then after work, went rollerblading with dad. thought a lot again. then seth came up from ny en route to montreal and so we met julian in downtown hartford. showed seth just how much hartford really sucks. even at xandos, it was thursday night karaoke and it was really bad. so we walked around a lot, finally picked something up and sat around bushnell park til 1230 am. and then theres today... not much is doing this weekend- im anxiously awaiting my laptop. the birds are really noisy. and im home for another 1/2 hr left of lunch. i wish it was a longer break. its not a good day to top off a not so great week. gotta get something to eat before i head back to work. i hope the day ends nicer atleast...
24/07/03(100am)- so i dont really have time to write, i really should be in bed. its been such a rough week. on the magazine quiz, i got 16/25, which for me, is good. it was on anglicismes and idiomatic french and whatnot and i cant believe i did as well as that. anyways, it puts me in the running for a robert multidictionairre which would be cool. particularly if i take out a minor in french. anyways. thats one piece of good news today. another piece of good news is i may have redemption in getting a chance to go on jeopardy finally. also, i ordered my new computer. its a customized dell latitude 500m, 1.4gHz, 20GB hard drive, centrino technology, and hopefully not the shitty hp that crapped out. anyways, to bed i head. tomorrows another day....
22/07/03(1015pm)- its like i keep posting in short little ones. its like ive got nothing better to do. songs run through my head, notes run through my fingers... (that sounds like lyrics that i could use to a song i started writing music to). i started working on booking rane into montreal and ottawa in october but we'll see how that goes. i also told nick that i needed to do something careerwise besides school. like start some venture up or something that might have long term payoffs. so i was thinking about a magazine, demographic tbd. im also entering in this contest in l'actualité to win a french slang dictionary. *shrug* ive just got so much on my mind so much feeling inside right now. im trying to make a concerted effort on what i now say here, but its hard. it feels like whats left here is gone and that now only montreal is leftover. even the bank is merging and 2 banks i worked for will exist no more under their names. ive got law school coming up. i cant see my future. it doesnt make sense how much stress life can throw at you at 21. its not like im that old yet....
(540pm)- its been a real rough couple days. lot on my mind. roommates tell me i should join them in mtl this weekend. i wish i could, but then id have to miss work. i sure could use it though. we got new birds- 4 zebra finches. they're as tall as my finger is long. and they beep and peep. loudly. i think we named them larry curly moe and shemp but im not sure yet. hard to distinguish them. anyways. need to be busied. need to be occupied. and doing more than just schoolwork. anyone wants to do something let me know.
19/07/03(700pm)- við lifðum í öðrum heimi
þar sem vorum aldrei ósýnileg
nokkrum dögum síðar
við tölum saman á ný
en hljóðið var ekki gott
við vorum sammála um það
sammála um flesta hluti
við munum gera betur næst
þetta er ágætis byrjun
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all i can do is love her. "oh take me back to the start..."
18/07/03(1150pm)- everyone complains when i said that work is boring. so work wasnt boring today. today christina brought us blueberry muffins the size of our heads. we were offline for 2 hours. ivy advised me that "there are more nemos in the fish." amy called me a weirdo. i played with jess' hair. nathan criticized my voice. deb was nice to me for once and denise hugged me a lot. and kris took care of my dads banking whilst we were offline.
other than that, it was a so so day at work. i was really a little shaken up from last nights conversation. today was kinda shaken up and then i was gonna go to a party with her, but i left early. as for tomorrow, well im going to her house party and then we're going to northhampton to see rane play the iron horse with the string quartet. should be good.
