29/05/04(1255am)- im feeling somewhat depressed right now. for starters, im sitting in a bedroom thats near empty. i remember sitting on the floor of this room three years ago, my tv was on the floor and i was getting the sopranos on global. i was sitting here putting together the furniture so i could finally move clothes and all that stuff in. now a couple pieces of that furniture are being dismantled, leaving giant spaaces in the room where there havent been in 3 years. that could not be any more saddening.

the other things that are depressing are the fact that my friends are graduating now and im not til november. plus theres the fact that they both have girlfriends. like i just came home from subway with seth and david and much of the conversation revolved around their graduation dinners with their parents and with their girlfriends' parents being there, etc...the parents meeting the girlfriends parents. and its kinda depressing. 1, im not getting a graduation dinner with anyones parents. hell, im still trying to figure out how my own parents managed to get barely me a birthday card for my 21st birthday (let alone my dad offering to take me out for a father-son drink). 2, its hard to be at this stage in life, watch the two of them with their girlfriends and feel so alone, like parents who want me to support myself, friends who are going to work, vacation in europe, or go to grad school, no friends back home really, and then not have anyone to lean on for emotional support. they decided to go out after subway, but i mean i called allison twice today and spoke to her to tell me her plans this evening and shes still never called back. someting tells me im not going out with her this evening. so what does that mean? it means i let david and seth go to bar des pins to shoot pool because i feel completely out of touch with their graduating and their girlfriends. and i guess it means im feeling what i fear most in the world, what feeling i hate most in this world: alone. [discuss]

28/05/04(130am)- well happy birthday to allison (yesterday). i think im gonna do my communcations paper on the lawsuit against napster and what it meant for music, copyright, internet, and the business of it. 24 season finale was okay for the first 45 min but the last 15 were weak. trying to figure out how andrew could come up here for my last hurrah in montreal. runnin around doing some last minute errands while also starting to pack. the blue meaney and the college street signs poser came down today for the first time since i put them up three years ago. but will really throw me is when the framed beatles poster comes down. elise gave me that poster as a birthday present when i moved in 3 years ago and it was my birthday and its been there since. i was walking down milton and prince arthur and also was seeing the guys working on the convocation tent on lower field, and the weather was nice, and multiple times over the course of the 15 min walk, i almost erupted in tears.

its been different for me as opposed to my uconn friends. see, i moved all my stuff here 4 years ago, with the exception of a move to the apartment, its never left montreal. so whereas my uconn friends might get the same room consecutive years, ive still known them to have to move their stuff out of dorms for thanksgiving, for winter break, for spring break, etc etc.... plus, many of them go home on weekends or so anyways, so its no different. ive had my stuff in this room for 3 years now. going home has made me feel like a visitor- like a stranger. my beds not the same back home (even my dad's been finding that out as of late). my surroundings dont feel like me. 127 prince arthur east has become my home. and for that, moving out of here brings me the most extreme of sadnesses.

so many, so many things have happened to me since ive been here. i came here 4 years ago looking for a change and i found it. i found diversity, i found spontaneity, i found vivacity... i found all those things which my south windsor experience sheltered me from my entire life. i found the city, and i found love. montreal is ingrained in my heart, montreal is ingrained in the fibre of my being. when i would go home for break, people would get sick of me because i would only talk about canada, i would only talk about montreal. people would get sick of the fact that i wasnt paying attention to the fact that im american and what that means. so i go home next week, hopefully temporarily (my resume hunt has been widened now to the UK and to France, aside from the US and Canada), and i probably wont be able to stop talking about canada. it was a different world when my dad spent his time in italy. but i've followed in his footsteps; ive studied abroad for several years. in the age of terrorism and bipartisan politics in the states, it makes me less than enthusiastic to go back and sometimes difficult to align myself with the beliefs and values which have supplanted my government today. i can only talk about canada and montreal because it was here where i learned a world exists outside of the ethnocentric American Bubble. it was here where i learned that the rest of the world doesnt like when americans wear it on their sleeves. but most of all, it was here where i grew up. maybe i didnt mature fully- made stupid mistakes, said stupid things, did or didnt do stupid things, etc etc. but part of growing up is gaining awareness. and awareness is something south windsor and something connecticut never provided. heck, maybe even america didnt give me all that awareness. canada may not have taught me everything about myself, but it taught me more about how the world works.

so as some of my possessions sit in some boxes on my floor, i dont know what to make of myself. i will miss canada, i will miss montreal. but definitely, definitely, do i not hope this is the last time i have lived here. for the usa is not the only country that is a "land of the free and the home of the brave." ive learned to look beyond the bubble and for that, canada, i am eternally indebted in gratitude. [discuss]

25/05/04(325am)- why is it that the american government and the global standing america has with the rest of the world has to be so fucked up that they couldnt be on good ground to create a working-holiday visa like canada has with various countries...such as france. i want to do a working-holiday in france. so basically, its seeming like nows the time in my life where ive got so many questions that i need a working holiday. since its seeming im being forced to head home for the time being, i'm gonna find some job there for a couple months, save up enough money, and make my own working-holiday in france until i figure out what to do with my life when i get back. and since most people reading this are americans, lemme clarify: 'holiday' in this case means 'vacation,' not a literal holy day. but i mean jeez, here's what the canada-france agreement ends up sounding like: "The working-holiday visa is intended for Canadian citizens who are between 18 and 35 years old at the time of application. The goal of the working-holiday program is to enable young Canadians to spend holidays and possibly to work in France for a limited period of time. The working-holiday visa is valid for one year and cannot be extended." I need to do this. i need my hemingway time. i need my kerouac time. i need my l'auberge espagnole time. most of all though, i feel like i need to prove something to my parents. im not yet sure what it is, but the feeling that its there is enough to say i need this. anyways, class again tomorrow and the last 24 of the season til january, and also the stanley cup finals. im changing my prediction to calgary in 6 not 7. [discuss]

24/05/04(310pm)- its 310pm and im just getting up. why? because for the first time in my life ive been so goddamn livid at neighbours that i placed a 911 call to make a noise complaint. for the last 3 days, our new next door neighbours have been partying on their terrasse (when i say partying, i mean for 3 consecutive days, i havent seen nobody sitting out there with a beer (usually a 40) in their hand.

now i dont mind noise at night, i dont mind noise even when people might be sleeping. i mean, this is prince arthur street. ive lived with a mexican restaurant across the street that's been pumping the same godawful cd all day, everyday, for three years. and theres the screaming drunks walking back from the bars at 3am. sometimes theres the 4am asshole bum who's trying to croon a tune to some drunks walking home, or the guy with the recorder doing the same. these are all things that we just accept living on this street.

however, our neighbours have taken rude and obnoxious to a new level. theyve managed to crank the music up louder than you would hear at a rock concert and sit outside and shout at people as if their ghettoasswhiteboyfromontario image made them black. this was at around 3am, every night for three nights. then, the music would sorta abruptly quiet, before another round at 5AM. both times, this was just at the point where i had actually fallen asleep. prince arthur is prince arthur, but fuck man, during the day, they were throwing coins down at ponytail lady. we make fun of her, but throwing coins? downright rude. i cant think of a stronger word to describe it.

so i ran down the corner to talk to the police who are usually there. there were 5 of them just standing araound. they wouldnt help me- they told me to call 911 to register the complaint. so i ran back exasperated and livid, and called 911 around 315. they said theyd dispatch someone to get the people to calm down. 20 min later, after watching out my window, still no one had come and the music was still going. having seen chantelle and marc-alex at depot, i decided to head down there and wait it out (also to see if i could grab another cop car, but none was there). i periodically checked down the street to see if anyone had stopped by their apartment, but by 5, i was just too tired and even though i never saw a cruiser down there, i figured they must have stopped. so i came home. finally around 530 (after it was actually quiet), i saw the cruisers out my window. theres no way though that they talked to the partymonsters.

but when i went to depot to get a cop, i realised something. the 5 policemen turned me away, 911 didnt dispatch anyone in an hour (even though i'd seen a cop car on PA east that turned around)... i started to actually wonder if i had dealt with them in french off the bat, whether or not this would have been expediated. if this happens again tonight (i dont know how it would- its raining), im doing it in french because i dont know if im angrier at the neighbours for having the decency levels of a terrible-two year-old or the montreal police for taking their sweetass time and not helping the community because they're anglos.

so all in all, may 2-4 weekend sucked. that and i got a somewhat disturbing email just now... [discuss]

23/05/04(530pm)- my canadian history prof is quoted in the new york times about the the call for canadian general elections. in other news, david and i bladed about 17K over the st. lawrence to the F1 race track, did a lap on the track, and then came back, all in about 2 1/2 hrs. thats about all ive got to say for now... [discuss]

(330am)- just finished writing my coda movement (and the last movement) of my opus. by the time i got done about a half hour ago, i was honestly almost crying. i started thinking about all ive been through for the last 4 years, about when i first got here and now, and its sad. i thought about this entire year- all the themes that ran through my opus and the one thing that tied it all together. now i seek to publish it, maybe in quills canadian poetry magazine. i have to edit it all first. now that i'm done with the whole body of work, i plan on editing it as an entire body.

saw supersize me yesterday. thought provoking, well done, but i didnt see an actual thesis point. was it telling us not to eat mcdonalds? not to eat all fast foods? eat fast foods in more moderation? exercise more? we could eat fast foods if we exercised more? and what about people who are genetically predisposed to obesity, where do they fit in? the gimmick works and is powerful, but extreme. and even if the facts are that most americans dont exercise as much as they should, or that a lot of people eat mcdonalds too much, they really arent as extreme as that.

need to go rollerblading on the F1 track. also apply to work for the bloc quebecois now that the new federal election is going to be called tomorrow for june 28 poll date. tampa bay won in 7. i predicted 6. now im predicting that calgary will win the final in 7. thats it for now, need to go to sleep. should be a day tomorrow... [discuss]

19/05/04(430pm)- i just have to say that shrek 2 is fantastic. i thought it was just as well written and a lot funnier than the first one. it will make you laugh out loud. [discuss]

18/05/04(820pm)- im starting to heavily think that i need to do something hemingway/kerouac-esque after this month. i need to have some starting money and then go to france, work there under the table at a coffee shop or something, find some room for rent, learn about life and how to live it, etc. its starting to otherwise look really nihilistic, like 1/4 of my life is done; what is the other 3/4 of it supposed to be used for? like i put up my resume on monster, hotjobs, and workopolis, but am i just gonna go straight into a career for the next 40 years of my life? it just seems so sad. id like to see if i could get my parents support on this, but they're with elise at penn state so i guess ill have to talk thursday. anyways, thats all ive gotta say for now. more later... [discuss]

17/05/04(605pm)- just did my presentation and my paper both due today. i dunno what else i feel like talking about other than whats steaming me today. i hate von dutch. i saw this guy with a black t-shirt of regular 100% cotton quality with a turquoise "von dutch" logo on it. apparently the shirt goes for 120$. what the fuck is that about. literally, i could make my own tshirt for 5$ thats a von dutch. it would be the EXACT same quality material, it would have the logo, and damned if i wouldnt be stylish. this city is being taken over by that brand and its pissing me off because there is absolutely nothing special about it. its probably worse than any other name brand out there. why? because nike, sean john, fubu... they're all names that were rooted in something. this popped up out of nowhere and just became popular for no reason other than it could. i was not manipulated and they failed in that. really really steamed about that one...look for me and my 5$ von dutch shirt tonight at st. elisabeths. [discuss]

13/05/04(1225pm)- im listening to the new keane album now. it comes out global release in two weeks. hmv has found a way to overstock on imports for distribution elsewhere, allowing themselves to sell cheap imported music. so anyways. i believe i predicted this before but keane is the next travis. they're a 3 piece, bass, drums, and piano. unlike ben folds, the piano on this is used to replace andy dunlop or jonny buckland. in that light though, using a piano as the mode through which traditionalist britpop has used guitars for its melodic hooks is genius. its not the most upbeat album and in terms of structure and whatnot but its innovative enough to tentatively get a place somewhere down on my top 10 of the year. anywas, this mac is acting screwy with my net2ftp. my class: still boring, and i helped my dad set up 3 computers and install the new router on the computer back home over the phone, so im feelin pretty good about that. i might go see the triplettes de belleville at 120 and then meet up with david and maybe work on job stuff more in the evening. more later...... [discuss]

11/05/04(205pm)- switched my service to telus from fido. so i also have a new cell number (though until people are aware, my calls are still being forwarded to the new cell from the old number. theres other things im kinda bummed about but i guess they're no ones fault. theres other things im kinda bummed about and theyre other peoples' fault. getting new brakes for my skates was good because now i can skate again. me david and nadim walked to olympic park the other night. i hear someone smashing something outside. my class is boring and sucky. i wish chart would call already. i might be overtired, i should be going to bed and im yawning and whatnot, but im not sleepy. yup its me and anton and james all week. meaning its basically me all week. not that anton and james arent here, but...yeahhh.... i need to get out, i need to get away from here. i need to meet other people, see other things, pretend to be someone else...grab life and shake it down from its ankles... escapism come on....

Coke addict frame of mind
Putains!
All wrinkly and shrivelled up botoxed
She is
The man with the ponytail, drop down to cold tile
On a coffee shop floor
Salopes!
Give me give me give me my addiction
You diamond laced shawl of - crisse de tabarnac!
Run and hide, leave this needle in my vein
My outstretched palm
And drive off in the safety of your Benz
Do unto me as you do unto yourself
Coked out high class bitch [discuss]

(1250am)-[12:40:43 AM] Fortune's Fo: anyway, see if you can write something like "tomorrow i'm going to dany's film festival for len blum's talk. should be fun. nfb cinema, berri uqam station, 6 bucks"
[12:41:05 AM] you losE? c: but you posted it on my board
[12:41:39 AM] Fortune's Fo: i did, but i am just wondering how many ppl will care about it when i write it, vs how many will care when you, the webmaster, mention it in your aily sermon [discuss]

08/05/04(325pm)-permit me to give some hockey analysis again as today starts the first game of conference finals. after two rounds, i am 6-6 with my picks. next up tampa bay vs. philly (6) and san jose vs. calgary (7). i am routing for both of those teams as well. maggie, who was 3-1 last round, also picks tb and calgary.

tampa bay should be a no brainer. they are quicker than philly, they are more creative than philly, they are younger, but not so inexperienced, and if playoffs are won on goalies, then my feeling is comparing esche to khabibulin is a farce. khabibulin has clearly shown to be one of the leading goalies this playoff year (even if the season was shaky). philly has names, but tampa plays like a team. as for the west, its an extremely close call. which is why i put it at 7 games. both have some names, both have leadership, san jose's offence might be a little stronger, but i think its the intangibles that will put calgary over the edge. for starters, theyve got the underdog factor. everyone likes an underdog. second, their fans havent seen the flames this far in the playoffs since 1989. and canadians love hockey, so the support is there en masse. then theres the issue of them beating two top seeded teams. thats a momentum builder. and cap that off with the impressive performances shown by kiiprusoff (whom im convinced is atleast equal if not better than nabokov), and i think youve got a team that could potentially bring a stanley cup finals back to canada. [discuss]

07/05/04(615pm)-jesus, i dont have enough to say today. rumsfeld is not resigning even while apologising. and the real kick in the ass? a scandal that has no political ties has managed to be politicized!!! republican representatives are like, well its ok that you stay, as long as you clean up your mess. JESUS its like the mantra of the administration: we'll make the mess, dont fire us because we'll clean it up and show that thats what america is all about. responsibility doesnt mean making a mess and then when people find out, saying that you're going to clean your mess up. responsibility means that you say "i accept what happen, i apologize, and i offer my resignation and will give further cooperation in the continuing investigation of this matter." it doesnt matter what general did or didnt give orders; rumsfeld is the cabinet member in charge of the armed forces, he should be taking his fall accordingly. if iraq has become my generation's vietnam, then im sorry but its impossible to be pragmatic about any of this. this just makes it the icing on the cake. and rumsfeld even thinks that his resignation could make it better. i dont know whats sicker, the photos or the administrations response to them. [discuss]

(1100am)- 1. fda isnt allowing over the counter sales of the morning-after pill. they're afraid it might encourage teens to have sex. NEWS FLASH PURITAINS!!!! how bout instead of eliminating birth control so teens have unprotected sex with no way to be protected from pregnancy and/or stds, how bout allow them to be educated. fucktards.

2. 62% of americans are feeling that iraq is going poorly. rumsfeld is about to take the stage in front of two congressional committees. that man is a fucktard. if this was canada, his ass would have been off the line right now because he would have already been fired or resign. there is no "left congress out of loop," no "lets track the chain of command." and he never took gen. boynton out of charge. if this was canada, the man on top is the man who takes the fall. or in today's ny times editorial: "It is time now for Mr. Rumsfeld to go, and not only because he bears personal responsibility for the scandal of Abu Ghraib. That would certainly have been enough. The United States has been humiliated to a point where government officials could not release this year's international human rights report this week for fear of being scoffed at by the rest of the world." lewis black was right on wednesday: for every single fuckup in 3 1/2 years, george w. bush has not gotten rid of ONE person who was responsible. totalitarianism at its finest?

better yet, bin laden now has bounties put on everyone from paul bremer to kofi annan. excuse me? not that it needs to be said that bush is a moron, but im still wondering about the american people. 47% of people would vote for bush again. with nader still running (even if his percentage of the vote isnt much, at a 50-50 split, it would break it), bush would win again. im kinda hoping he puts his "im george w bush and i approve this message" snippet on some outrageous commercial. the way the rest of the world HATES HATES HATES the united states right about now, voting bush out should be a no-brainer. and yet...47% approval rating? jesus christ, its looking like america is about 6 months away from being fucked for another 4 years. wheres permanent residency when i need it? [discuss]

(255am)- things to discuss:
1. my communications class. which isnt half bad except the prof is into feminism and communication.
2. my time continues to run down in montreal. the month is almost 1/3 done and there are no indications that any friends will be visiting (i guess that even includes the montreal friends?).
3. i ran into my animatrice, sophie, in square st-louis today. its still weird hearing her speak english. however i got to speak with her in french, so that was a good respite. my french is definitely not lost when i get going.
4. got a new brake for my rollerblades.
5. had lunch with zoya.
6. started reading eric schlosser's reefer madness (he also wrote the bestseller, fast food nation).
7. went with seth to burlington to see lewis black. good to escape from montreal city limits for the first time in 5 months. i swear, i had not crossed the waters of the st. lawrence river since december. not to ottawa, not to quebec, not to toronto. i hadnt even gotten across to longueuil. so for 10 hours to go to burlington, that was good for a change of pace. it was funny, he threw the obnoxious drunk guy out and then said he felt bad cause he's been there. and then there was the girl sitting next to me who said "excuse me, could you stop reading that book aloud" when i was talking to seth about some of the interesting facts i was learning in reefer madness. i turned to seth with a "what the fuck" look and his response was "if it werent for my horse, i wouldnt have spent that year in college.
8. got a manpurse.
9. i really want an ipod.
10. since ive got no friday classes, im probably gonna work on applications maybe to hopefully have packages all out and made by monday at latest. however, i wish chart would call me for an interview already :-/. i think thats otherwise been it the last couple of days [discuss]

03/05/04(510pm)- okay, im bringing pacmanhattan to pacmontreal. im thinking of running it may 24?

today was day 1 of history of communications in the electronic age. 15-20 min presentation, 5-7 page essay, 8-10 page essay. thats about it. monday-thurday 9-1130am. anyone who wants to come up to montreal before i leave here for good, you have 3 weekends or less to do so (since im probably going to toronto one weekend). more when ive got it. [discuss]

01/05/04(410am)- i dont know whats sadder. the fact that president bush met with the prime minister in canada today in washington for the first time since martin took the office, and that CNN COMPLETELY NEGLECTED to mention this meeting. or the fact that iraqi PRISONER abuse is RIDICULOUS. "There's two sides to the story. The military has one and we have another," the father [of one of the involved soldiers] said. "We are a close-knit family, we always have been, and we are determined to do whatever it takes to get this situation straightened out. He's a perfect son." one year ago since aircraft carriers and "mission accomplished!" bullshit bullshit bullshit BULLSHIT. [discuss]

(1220am)- its thursday, its friday, its 26 degrees out. prince arthur is happenin, st. laurent is happenin and one girl is not here for it. opus coda next month promises to be the best movement yet. i can see it now. i can see it now. full of vivacity, full of spontaneity, full of introspection as i ready to leave this city. read my website, read my emails, dont say a word back. screw you. [discuss]

30/04/04(415am)- im wired right now. and i was in a pissy mood last night. 1. i gotta redo some french work tomorrow am (today). 2. im going to try my kite again tomorrow maybe? 3. i started writing another 20 page life-assessment letter again tonight. if depot and st. laurent/prince arthur werent so happening tonight, i might have been less distracted and more writing that letter. 5. i saw those girls from the march opus for the second time in 4 days tonight. yeah. the redhead was cute. 6. im planning on publishing my opus after doing a final edit. anyone know of lit magazines that would publish something that long? [discuss]

29/04/04(930pm)- they fucking blew it. they fucking outplayed tampa 3/4 games and lost 4/4 of them. they fucking choked and blew it. fucking fucking fucking blew it. they deserve zero stars. especially jose theodore, who is still with his head up his fucking ass on that 16$ million contract. fucking fucking fucking blew it. [discuss]

(900pm)- ive realised a couple of things today:
1. its hard to fly a kite. they get up and then nose dive down. i felt like charlie brown.

2. the habs have been creating turnovers left and right. that is why they are losing this series to tampa bay.

3. in three years of living in this apartment, i have yet to have sex in my bed. that makes me really sad.

4. i was thinking about friends and the friends ive made here and how different they are from those at home and how different it is and the process of making friends. i realised that back in ct, i made friends with people who had the same things in common with me. maybe they liked star trek. or hootie and the blowfish. or any number of interests of mine that i had. but in four years, most of the friends ive made- they really have nothing in common with me. seth and david are jewish, but thats about it. ive realised that making friends has nothing to do with what you have in common, but whether you like a persons personality/company. this includes significant others. for instance, none of my friends really have commonalities with me. none of my friends play instruments, so i dont jam with any of them. many of my friends dont like the habs. or like other sports better, or other teams. coldplay may be the only band that most people like, but of my friends, most of them dont know or like the varied music i listen to. life philosophies arent always the same... and so i think, how was it when i first came here that i made friends? i remember sitting at dinner in bmh first year, feeling like it was summer camp or something. you know, just a bunch of people i would be living with and experiencing this with for 4 years. and i would go from group to group and table to table of people trying to see who i had what in common with.

i have an impeccable database in my head of names and faces. 80% of the time, i can remember a face and/or its accompanying face. so after 4 years, its interesting that some people i pass every day walking to class, and i know their face and i know their name, but they might even know that i ate dinner with them for a month first year. or that i was in their frosh group. or any of the above. and once in a while we're re"introduced" at some random party or something. and maybe i liked them at the time. or maybe i didnt like them and just hung around cause i thought i was supposed to.

senior year of high school is returning for me. my life has gone full circle. the waiting, the anxiety, the girls, the future, the friends, the leaving, the moving on.... 4 years ago at this exact point in the year, i wrote myself a 20 page letter detailing exactly what was going on in my life. short of wanting to deck andrew for getting my girlfriend to cheat on me with him (some memories just never get erased...), i dont think my life has reflected differently now. yes, there have been many memories, many experiences, everything from montreal. but its like my own wuthering heights. its like the second part of my life- its very different, but exactly the same. history has a way of repeating itself. theres someone else id rather deck now. theres other people im interested in. theres other doubts about leaving friends behind. theres other doubts about making friends in the future. theres other doubts about meeting other people in the future. and nagging thoughts about life and love.

ending chapters in the book of life always makes me introspective. 4 years ago, i started work on my album, canned introspection. it was a time where i was nostalgic, wistful, and wondering about the future. im at that point in my life again. the hostile juncture. the point where i might warrant writing another 20 page letter, trying to figure my life out. and, like 4 years ago, show it to the people whom im most affected by and need to see my thoughts.

movement 9 of the opus of prince arthur and st. laurent is now being dubbed the coda movement. its a movement that wasnt originally supposed to have been written. it is my summation of the year, it is my summation of my feelings on women, it is my summation of the things ive done and seen. it is my summation of montreal. forever have i changed, forever am i the same... [discuss]

(1225pm)- im tired of the bullshit about how iraqis should be grateful for the us "liberating iraq." jon stewart was right on the daily show last night. what if instead of defeating the british and writing our constitution and writing another constitution and creating an american flag, etc.... what if the french did that for us. what if it was the french who single-handedly ousted king george, wrote us a constitution, gave the us a flag and then said "go at it." how would have that have turned out? probably not good. 80% of iraqis didnt like saddam hussein. fair enough. however, ~75% of iraqis dont like george bush. so the question is, is it a fair assessment to say that its a good thing we're in iraq still. no one should have to die in war, particularly in the methods of carbombings and insurgent fire, suh as that going in in al-fallujah right now. however, i cant help but wonder if the iraqi people are really justified in doing what they are doing if they're ever going to liberate themselves. in reality, there never is a power vacuum.

the next question on the chopping block is that of the bush/cheney 911 commission joint testimony. it makes sense and shouldnt surprise the american public in the least. we always knew the two were up to something. we knew they knew something, we knew they didnt act on it. we knew it was the two of them in it together. and then with the political wrangling about how many people/staff members get to be in the room when the two clowns arent under oath...? quite frankly the american public isnt convinced anymore, thus, i dont see the logical progression of 911 commission events as being shocking. to quote a post-911 americanism, "united they stand, together they fall." bush may be the puppet, but the dummy and the hand inside it form one entity.

there was one more thing i had to say about iraq but i cant remember what it was. [discuss]

27/04/04(630pm)- with the exception of my so-ive-heard-as-easy may final, i am done with undergraduate exams. i can finally sleep in tomorrow. french lit was alright but writing in french sucked. europol was too easy it was foolish. especially the mandatory bullshit, write about the similarities/differences of 1 of the following 3 pairs of countries question. waiting to hear from chart. waiting to meet sera. 25 min til game 3. mirv is moving today. i had a dream that i smoked a doobie with the dalai lama. im gonna go to the washroom now. dad will be proud to read that. everyone else wont understand. the words "chillax" and "cellify" do not exist in the english language. anyone who uses them should be shipped to don cherry's home and forced to watch a leafs game with him. go habs. [discuss]